I’m my own worst enemy when it comes to being critical of my books. I often think every word I put down is the wrong one and the book isn’t as strong as it should be so I’m very guilty of deleting massive amounts of a WIP (work in progress book) and starting from scratch. I’ve been known to deleted tens of thousands of words and sometimes the entire book if I think it’s not worthy of publication.
I kick my own ass the entire time, always nitpicking at the chapters, at the characters, at the writing, and at the storyline.
There are times I send a book off to the editor(s) and think “omg, they’re going to hate it”, “readers will hate it”, “everyone will hate it”.
When I get back a note telling me that what they’ve read to date is awesome, it pretty much leaves me in an emotional puddle of tears of happiness and relief.
Self-doubt is a real struggle for me. Even after over 100 titles to date being published. I don’t think it will ever go away. In some regards, I hope it doesn’t. The fact I obsess and overthink every detail means I care about the end product/result. I care about the book that goes out to readers.
I just wanted to thank everyone who helps during every stage of the process. Big thanks to my family for understanding why I become crazier while writing, to Michelle for letting me bend her ear when need be and for always being ready with a shovel to help bury a body should my crazy take over too much, to extended family who get that I basically fall off the face of the earth when working, to my cover artists for putting up with me, to my editors who deal with my neurotic behavior and last minute freak outs like champs, to my final line editors who never judge how late I get the book to them, to my final proofers who always stay positive and help out no matter what, to my ARC team who takes time out of their day to read and review my books, and to the readers who trust me enough to order my books and spend their hard earned money on me. THANK YOU! ALL OF YOU!